This question. I kind of hate it. Of course, everyone spends some time thinking about it at some point (and most likely multiple points) in their life. I hate it because even though I can think of my motivations, it also puts me in a place where I’m confronted with reasons to NOT pursue my dreams. I think this is true for most people which is why this question can be so uncomfortable.
I had no intention of writing a blog post about this subject or answering this question. However, a couple of weeks ago, it just happened and I’m just now getting around to posting it. Apparently, even though it was written, I still decided to sit on it for a while.
Some back story:
The opportunity came up to write a guest post on another person’s blog. I received an email with the suggested post topics and I scanned through them, immediately eliminating the ones that made me uncomfortable and narrowing it down to 2 or 3 that I could stomach to write and not feel vulnerable. This question (I hate) was quickly scratched off the list and I responded with the comfy subjects. As I waited for a reply on the topics, I started thinking more and more about the uncomfortable ones and found myself answering this question in my head as I washed dishes. The question had already been answered because I think about it everyday. It’s an active process daily, but I had never taken the time to put it in writing. I opened up a new email on my phone and explained how I’d chosen a new topic.
What I typed out is below. This is what keeps me motivated.
My business was something I started pursuing about a year ago but something I continuously tried to convince myself would fail. I had a full time job and I didn’t love it, but it was my first job that I felt okay with and did not come home crying each day (the life of social work).
I was in a grant-funded position, but I (and my employer) did not anticipate the grant ending. But, it did. I found myself having to make the decision to look for other employment or go all in with my business. I made the decision to go all in and take that leap of faith.
On my last day at my previous employment, my supervisor gave me this picture.
Most people don’t know that there are angels whose only job is to make sure you don’t get too comfortable and fall asleep and miss your life. ~ Brian Andreas
It was the most on-point and meaningful thing she could have done. And I cried. And I was happy. And I was hopeful.
I lost my grandmother several years ago and I cannot count how many times a day I wish I could talk to her. She was my best friend, biggest motivator, and basically my therapist. She’s my angel now and having this in my office reminds me every day that things happen for a reason and I can question them, but that doesn’t mean they’re not pointing me in the right direction.
It’s not an easy task to stay motivated and that stands true for most people. Having something as a reminder certainly helps and when you feel unmotivated, take some time to remind yourself of your goals and actively explore why those goals are important to you.
If this question makes you uncomfortable too and you’re in the mood to share, tell me:
What motivates you to keep pursuing your dreams?